is being so close

began cycling to ashy's house for basketball again.let's just say my stamina has lessened greatly after National Service.but i'm working on it.we're starting the whole sports lifestyle that we used to do together as a gang of6in high school that will predictably fall away again especially since we're all busy with uni and college and stuff.phoon couldn't make it.she will one day.ashy's birthday's this thurs.we're going spiderman3-ing!!i hope.haha.it's hard to get the whole gang together again in one specific time.
i had malaysian studies today in uni.which means i missed WinGS.it's a bummer really.but on the other hand,at least the teacher makes me laugh.it somehow compensates a little for the fact that we're learning sejarah all over again in a whole new language.and i'm one of the rare weirdos who finds it boring.go figure.it's only the first lesson and we've got assignments.i got tun hussein onn.weeeee.

what's funny was wikipedia was running all through my mind when she gave a stern warning that she'll fail any material from that site.

tough luck.

forgive me for the messy spread of pictures.i'm creative,what can i say?haha.

i've found the secret

in the worship service today we were singing Jesus Lamb of God and even as i sang while strumming,i was so caught by the words 'You are my all in all".though it's pretty common for one to say Jesus is their everything, most of the time the true meaning gets lost in the wave of repetition and so-called commonness of that phrase.many would say it without having experienced first the deeper impact of that sentence.

of course there are others who would exclaim about how their girl/boyfriends or spouses are their everything.

i know enough to say that Jesus is my everything.my all in all.because i can lose someone close to my heart and be really really devastated and sad about it but still live on.but i cannot lose Jesus and continue living.

a couple of us were at the mamak yesterday after WinGS and we were talking bout how Joel didnt get a phone till he was 17 cause he didnt feel he needed one.we agreed that it wasnt really necessary at that time but also unanimously said that we cannot do without it now.
that analogy ends there.
but it's kinda like God.sometimes when things are going really well we feel that we don't need God.but the more we truly experience Him in our lives whether through good or bad,the more we realise we need Him and just cannot do without Him.in fact,we discover that we need Him even more with every passing second.

so i confidently say,without a trace of hesitation,without a scent of doubt, that Jesus is my all in all.

You Are My All In All
You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising again I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

is it something to stand for?

i never really got it when people utter the oh-so-popular phrase-boy,am i glad it's the weekend.i guess it was because my weekdays were pretty fun and i enjoyed them a lot especially during high school.though arguably in ns the weekends were the only days we didnt have to wake at5am..

but now?i had a rough week.it got better sometime on thursday but it was one of the longest weeks i've ever had,and that's saying something.
you know that feeling that we have sometimes when we're not having the greatest of days that there's just so many things to do to work things out,but you find that you can't do anything except trusting God.and that's a real test of faith,where we have no other choice but to fully depend on Him.i had a great week in a spiritual sense cause i definitely got closer and deeper in my walk,but i had a terrible week in a human sense.
all in all,
boy,am i glad it's the weekend.

You see the depth of my heart and You love me the same

You are amazing God.

i went for the final*falls on her knees in relief*driving ceramah today.the 6 hour one.uh-huh.the journey there itself was murderous.i wanted to puke the whole way.it didnt help that the driving academy was in nilai which meant that it took about a torturous hour to get there.
owh and here's a record.i went throught the whole day till i got home in the evening on one squiggles.(it's this choc bun thing in case you were gaping)and the sounds my stomach made throughout the day was enough to fill a whole album with a couple of bonus tracks.

wow.maybe i do have a chance in the music business.

in the chaos, in confusion i know You're Sovereign still

eventful weekend.
i had hari anugerah cemerlang on saturday morning..it was reli cool..they had perarakan for us spm top scorers and iring-ed us all the way to the dewan with kompang and stuff..haha..maklumlah,this year top3in Msia with velu's 15A1s..then we had rescue youth rally..it was awesome to see new youths coming(not that i'm implying anything..dont terasa k wilson..haha)be praying that God will work in their hearts about what they heard.
then we had easter service today..after which was followed by pot-bless lunch and the fund-raising carwash for the youth mission trip..and that,that was fun.haha..aside from setting a fashion trend with bryan's shirt cos i didnt bring spare change,drying the car with the younger youths was fun.our personal best record time was 1minute39secs for a hyundai matrix.haha..we were racing against time..had a blood donation drive too running in line with the car wash but i didnt donate*shivers*haha

the title of this blog post..a line from hillsong united's none but Jesus moved me a lot while we were practising it for the rally.i always have to remind myself not to break because whatever happens God is still Sovereign.and that never changes.

i have orientation this thursday.i have yet to go and watch ninja turtles.
my phone credit is running low.