Sunday, October 29, 2006

what is on my mind?

what is on my mind? the likes=P

you probably won't be seeing any new posts for some time.
as shocking as it sounds i do need to study;)

i've got no time to talk bout the whole camp,i figure wilson will post it on his multiply.hopefully.

so far he hasnt.but let's hope.haha.sorry.time is not on my side.
mark december4th for that is when my freedom arrives.

sarah is gone.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

was there any doubt?

I was studying biology yesterday,undeniably my worst subject.The lowest i ever got being 17 marks,in a monthly exam which means that we were only tested on one pathetic topic and i kicked butts.mine,to be exact.
anyways,i found myself unconsciously skipping the topics that i'm really bad at,fast-forwarding to topics i find easier to revise.I didn't want to deal with the source of my frequent fail grades.I comforted myself saying if i mastered the other topics it would be the same.the word 'revision' is wasted on me.

aren't we like that sometimes?we refuse to take that more difficult step for Christ.we'd rather settle ourselves in our comfort zone,doing something more out of routine rather than sincerity.In the same way,we keep lying to ourselves to create false comfort that we've reached the peak of our capability when deep down we know-oh yes,we know-that we're only doing the minimal.
maybe it's evangelism.hey,i pray for the lost everyday.i'm doing a pretty good job already.i'll just let God do the rest.

objecting already?well,are you showing God's love?You are?well are you doing it to the best of your ability?Are you forgiving as easy?Do you love others like you love YOURSELF?Yeah, love.

Love is patient,love is kind.It does not envy,it does not boast,it is not proud.It is not rude,it is not self-seeking,it is not easily-angered,it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.It always protects,always trusts,always hopes,always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

are you going uh-oh?cause i did.i do things mostly for my own benefits.i say i help others,but i'm helping myself.when the person i didn't like got into trouble,i wasn't complaining.And the last time i checked,my you-did-me-wrong record book is as thick as ever.
like i shared in WinGS meeting today,this few verses never fail to make me wonder if i've ever really loved.and so i always refer to this chapter so that i know what is love,and how to love.

yeah,i know,we're only human.but we're not just any human.we have the Holy Spirit in us and I believe that enables us to love like no normal human can.we've experienced God's love,so why can't we share it with those who haven't?

never say that what we're doing for God is enough,because it's never enough.

He did so much more.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

missing out,making up.

it sucks so bad that i'm gonna have to miss out on vbs(vacation bible school)this year.i just totally love spending time with the kids.but hey,it's during spm.i do not have a do-able option.bummer.

well,at least i don't have to miss youth camp from the23rd till the25th'll be fun.wonder what it'll be like to be with the same youths who aren't allowed handphones at camp?haha.

i've got more than300pics taken by unc raymond in last year's vbs and would like to upload a few but i'm facing some problems with that.when i sort it out i'll probably post em.and believe it or not it hurts to go through the pics knowing i'm gonna miss it this year=(

i broke my acoustic's bridge pin so i can't change the strings and play yet.
5minutes before that i broke the3rd string of my electric.

looks like there'll be no guitaring till the next time i step into a music store.unless i choose to pluck to nickelback's far away without the 3rd string that is crucial for that particular song.

i just can't pick the latter.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Always and Forever.

i'm this the right expression?i don't know.cause i didn't know what a tag was until like 2 minutes ago when peiling gave me an insight of what it was.

i prefer seven..but then i'd have to tell you more bout me.that wouldn't be very comfortable would it?*wink*

Four things not many people know about me...
1.i read.a lot.
2.i'm happy after i pee.cause i just eliminated some toxic from my body thus lessening the risk of myself getting those diseases whose name i could never remember.not like i want to.
3.i can talk.a,really.much more than you think i can.imagine that.
4.i wish i could speak fluent mandarin and cantonese.(if you're under the delusion that i can,please scroll down and ignore this.)

Four movies I could watch over and over..

1.white chicks!!i've watched it four times four times four get my drift.
2.mighty morphin power i don't have it now.they probably don't produce it anymore.*sad*but when i was in kindergarten,i'd watch it everyday after i get home.without fail.until i told my mum i wanted to jump off our apartment and fly like power rangers.then she confiscated the and my big mouth.
3.teenage mutant ninja turtles.'nuff said.*grin*
4.the chronicles of narnia.watching it over and over would show me over and over again just how much He did for me.and prevent me from lapsing into foolish ignorance.

Four places i've lived..(and am living) a fantasy that i'm in control of my life. a world flooded with lost people whom i want to reach out to. delusion. a room that cannot qualify as a room anymore,more adequately named,a rubbish dump that can still sustain life.for more info refer to previous blog post.or maybe not.

Four tv shows i love(d) to watch..

1.mighty morphin power rangers the series.(yeah,i'm loyal.what can i say?=P)

2.teenage mutant ninja turtles(yeah,i'm loyal.what can i-wait.oops.a lapse fully attributed to limited vocabulary.)

3.spongebob squarepants.

4.amazing race(i had to chuck this in so it will at least show that i'm not a child anymore who only enjoys children shows.i'm not.)

Four places i've been on vacation.. was in my dreams.there was a chair,a table and a bed.oh,and a shower head.ahh..what a blissful vacation.

2.australia.(finally..she's making sense..haha) mother's womb.(hey i don't remember having to study every single day in there so yeah,i consider that the best 38 weeks of holiday in my life-my life didn't really begin then did it?no sejarah and bio every night lah ok?you can't blame me.)

4.somewhere lah~

Four of my favourite foods..

1.sausages.and don't you dare start talking bout my fingers.i get enough of it in school.

3.canteen food.if they cater from mcdonalds'. that don't make me run to the toilet after.i do not wish to get specific.

Four places i would rather be..


2.the invigilator's seat.she can have mine.

3.the we-dish-out-free-guitars-every-7-seconds store.

4.a jamming studio.bliss.

Four favourite songs(this hour)..

1.You Are God Alone-Phillips,Craig and Dean.

2.Happy Birthday-Sarah Yang(Phoon's birthday lah tomorrow,must practice)


4.Funtwo's Canon in D

note:i don't wanna tag anyone because i do not think it's the appropriate time(huh?)malaslah.i might another time.

watch this space.

I'm up next am I not?

sometimes i wished i had a tidier room.sometimes.specifically exam times.cause then i'd be able to find bits and pieces of everything that i jot important notes opposed to tearing apart my room and wasting half an hour only to find one tenth of what was probably once an important piece of paper.

it wouldn't come as a surprise if i forget that i actually have a study table cause right now it looks more like a levitated part of the floor supporting books and books and papers and papers and God knows what else.

i may be the proud owner of probably the smallest amp ever invented but it doesn't stand in the way of me making it like every other part of my room.that is to say,messy.make that very messy.last time i stole a glance it had two cables,a phone,a capo,an empty frozz box,a duracell and an energizer.ask no questions and you will be told no trying-to-make-myself-sound-like-a-tidy-person lies.

one more week of exams and i'll be free to study for more exams.


Monday, October 09, 2006

You Are God Alone

i am in the midst of never-ending exams..and i found that i tend to be more dependant on my abilities than God's power.

with the exam fever,panic runs high.when it does,i find myself going through all possible factors that can help the time factor.the more time i have,the better position im in to get prepared.and don't get me wrong,time is obviously important.but sometimes we get so into worrying about the amount of time we have.

if there's not much time left,it's alright.i'll just find a very able tutor who can drill everything into me just in time to go into the exam hall.and so i depend on the ability of the all suddenly seems to hang on the fact of whether or not i can get the best tutor.

in the haste to get prepared,all our energy is either spent worrying or doing everything possible to prepare ourselves.that we forget.forget that even when we're in this hectic situation,God is still God.

And now,in the good times and bad,
You are on Your throne,
You are God alone.

(You are God Alone-Phillips,Craig and Dean)

we'd rather put our trust in things and people of our kind,in other words,uncertain things,when God Himself,all powerful is just calling for us to trust in Him.

kinda stupid isn't it when you come to think of it?to the point of pure foolishness.but why?
because we want to be in control of things.if we put our trust in God,we know that we have to have100% faith in Him,and we just gotta trust and wait in what He's gonna do.and sadly,we just aren't able to do that.

we have to always be aware,that even in our most troubled times,God is still as powerful as He is in our best times.
we tend to forget that.

Be still and know that I am God.Psalm 46:10

Thursday, October 05, 2006

slow or just plain dumb?

it's very simple really.
i was in school the other day only with reiny.there was no teacher,no electricity and we were dreadfully bored and had to do something to stop us from turning to possibly the only form of entertainment we had in such hot conditions-strangling each other and basically see who drops and faints first .then we can rush to the hospital where there's air-conditioning.
that was the initial plan anyway.
then we saw that matt wasn't using his chess set(which came as a shock at first)so we gave that game a go.

so getting to the point,after about3minutes into the game,i got so excited as i saw a chance to check reiny(yes i haven't been playing since i was as tall as my guitar)so i checked her lah.
and guess what reiny said?
'it's the queen lah dong.'*prolonged laughter for about5years*
alright so it was probably like15mins of laughter but it sure felt longer than that.

so tell me,am i slow or just plain dumb?sigh.

Monday, October 02, 2006

I Stand For You by Tree63

Jesus, I stand for You
No matter what You lead me through
They will chase me out
and close me down but Jesus
I stand for You

I'll always stand (3x)
for You
I'll always stand (3x)
for You

Jesus, I've stood my ground
When unbelief was all around
I have felt the sting rejection brings
but Jesus, I still stand for You.

A time will come when everyone
will turn their eyes on the risen son
Until that day, this world will turn away
So I'll take your hand,
I'll always stand for You

Guilty of this grace,
but You took my place
Jesus I'll always stand for You.

I'll always stand (3x)
for You
I'll always stand (3x)
for You

For you
I'll always stand for You

remember how you used to say?

it's weird how something can unconsciously become a part of your life through the course of time.You may well be at the end of a perfect day, all happy and contented when suddenly this weird feeling of emptiness will somehow constrict your throat and spread through your body.
and you spend that few moments wondering what on earth can make you feel that way on a flawless day?
then unwilling comprehension dawns and you realise that something(or indeed someone)was missing during that day and you need it.bad.
because somehow,it has made its way into your life and lodged itself there unmovingly.
it has become a part of your never meant for it to be like that,but things have a way of becoming what we don't want it to be.
and that's the way it is.

anyways enough of deep gets tiring*wink*
had a short jamming session with bryan yesterday after choir.i took to the drums and he strutted his stuff with the's been awhile since i actually played it,and the moment i struck the first beat,i knew how much i missed it.the feeling i get outta playing it is kinda the same when i play my in,relaxation,addiction,fun,joy..i can't really explain it actually..i just love it;)
but then we had to leave for mid valley to catch the devil wears prada so the fun was cut short.
i wonder what will happen if i take up the saxaphone.