Thursday, May 21, 2009

both a little scared, neither one prepared

It's easy to boast about not fearing death when there is no imminent threat to your life. Easy to say, 'I'm not afraid of death! I know where I'm going and Who i'm gonna see right'?

But when death is closer, when your days are numbered in real finite digits, not just some unpredictable surety, do you wonder?

When i close my eyes here, will i open them straight away in heavenly realms? Will i, like in the movies, be lying on the ground, picking myself up to find white surroundings, approaching high gates to find my Lord. Or will He be the One who wakes me up and walks me into His courts? Will He be the first sight i behold at heaven? What would be my instinct reactions?

My imagination runs wild, till i'm hard put to contain it. Am i even ready to meet Him? Will we be as close as i claim us to be here on earth?

Perhaps not. So much more effort to be put into this relationship. So many more things that should stop being taken for granted, Some life revamping is in order.

It really makes you stop. And think.

Really think.

I Can Only Imagine - Mercy Me

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me

I can only imagine
I can only imagine

Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You

I can only imagine
I can only imagine

Sunday, May 17, 2009

every sky was your own kind of blue

because i think the chicken is so cute, and i love pushing it when it comes to rachel. and it helped me relax.

ah, the simple pleasures of life.

Monday, May 11, 2009

promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance

My youngest sister, rebekah's blog has this song by miley cyrus from the new hannah montana movie. It's called the climb. The moment i heard it through, the words struck a chord with me.

Ironic how this 'non-Christian' song got me to instinctively reflect my Christian life. I feel like these few months, i have been facing a lotta mountains in my life. The small ones, the bigger ones. I realised without really realising it before that they are the ones that are shaping me slowly everyday now, changing my view and take on some things, and making my heart right in gray areas. But at the same time, i realise these are the ones that are so wearisome, draining me of the will to keep going sometimes, because being human, i cant help but stop and think- i just don't have the strength to go on anymore. Lord, i'm tired.

I was chatting with wenshan, a uni classmate yesterday night. He's a really grounded Christian guy and i was just so discouraged in this one particular area of working with people and i was sharing with him and his words were so encouraging and i could tell it was spoken from experience.

I was flipping through the book by joyce meyer jon gave layyean on her birthday saturday morning, and i read something that said

It doesn't take any special talent to give up or lie down on the roadside of life and say, "I quit!"

Which is so true. So many times i just wanna tell God i quit! But i want to be different, and the way there is i've gotta first learn to get over life's disappointments and deal with them so they don't get me down. I can't afford to let them pile up and accumulate into something that drags me down later down the road.

Then i'm gonna let God pick me up.

2 papers down, 2 more papers to go. Can't wait, although i have to say in all my finals, i have never been less stressed. So blessed with many people encouraging and praying for me everyday you know who you are thank you=)

See y'all at the end!

Monday, May 04, 2009

i'm still holding on somehow

Let's call this friend of mine Mr. L.

So we were studying in ringing silence in the meeting room and then all of a sudden,

hiewmun : who farted?!

Mr. L : *sneaky giggle* heehee it's me sorry.

clarence : it's the silent one!

weiwen & sarah: *leaves the room immediately*

Incidentally, he had char siew, siew yoke and ku lou yoke for lunch. Every dish possible for the swine flu pandemic.

I wonder if swine flu is airborne.

Barely 10 minutes later,

weiwen : *sings* ha-lle-lu-jah

clarence : *sings* here i go again~ (mamma mia song)

hiewmun, weiwen, sarah : *looks up* huh?!

clarence : what? i was just continuing - ... oh no!


who ever said study break is boring?