Tuesday, January 26, 2010

we could make a feast from these crumbs

Hello hey hi! I was debating between updating and writing a farewell post for Rachel Cha who just left for australia and who happens to be a really close friend. But i decided against the farewell post, at least not yet, since we managed to hold back all tears at the airport with much treasured laughter, it's better to keep the tears away till we are more accustomed to the distance haha.

So, i really do not know how to update from where i left it, so i'll just put random thoughts in points.

  • I appreciate time so much more during exam period. I am more sensitive towards how i spend my time. Example, i'm turning in bed unable to sleep and i think, "Man, i could be studying right now, what a waste of time!." Earlier, i was watching tv for 3 hours straight, but no, of course not, watching tv is not a waste of time at all!
  • The only good thing about exams is when i'm stressed, i don't have much of an appetite. Unfortunately, the same cannot be said now that exams are over.
  • Sherlock Holmes has got to be one of my favourite movies ever (and no, i don't have 200 favourite movies) I wish they made more witty intelligent hilarious movies like that.
  • Exams make me overreact. When i break my guitar strings during exam season, i'm like oh no, now i can't play i'm gonna die of stress! On a usual day if i break it, i'll just read a book or watch tv instead. Can always get a new set of strings the next day.
  • A friend reminded me of this: ikut resmi padi, semakin berisi, semakin tunduk :)
  • I think messy rooms actually LOOK nicer, different people have different opinions, shouldn't we respect that? hehe
  • Sometimes in the morning, my mum comes into my room, lifts the pillow that covers my face, and tries to hold a conversation with me about what i wanna have for lunch, what time i'm gonna wake up, am i going to uni to study, what bus i'm gonna take today etc (exam season, on days with classes she knows my schedule la haha), and then drops the pillow again. Needless to say the conversation is short, and the response very limited.
  • I broke both my sling bags, and rediscovered the joy of using a backpack. It's a miracle how what feels like a 5kg load in a sling bag feels like 1kg in a backpack. Ok so maybe it has something to do with even distribution of weight, but it rocks nevertheless!
  • I realised even when i'm crossing a one way street, i still have to look left and right, then i feel stupid when i cross, but i think it's for good measure haha
  • As we grow, we have to accept that people change. It doesn't have to be for the better or for the worse, they just change. People drift apart because of these changes whether you like it or not, life goes on.

I've run out of thoughts, so till next post, take care people :)

Monday, January 18, 2010

one step in front of the other

I am backkk!! Even I myself don't remember when was the last time i updated cause the date doesn't show haha, i think need to make amendments to the template codes.

You know sometimes in life things happen that make you realise, there are more important things in life than what i am so occupied with now. You just need to look around to see that there are bigger things happening than, say, exams (*cough*cough* haha) or troubled relationships that take up all your time and energy. But give it a week, a month maximum, and we fall back into the same little hole we came out of for a little while.

Anyway, i am not trying to be philosophically cliche or anything, i just really love how the writer of this poem summarizes life, i love the meaning in his lines, so simply put, but speaks the deepest desires of our hearts so beautifully. I will be back for some updates on what's going on, but in the mean time, enjoy :)


“Two little lines I heard one day,Traveling along life’s busy way;
Bringing conviction to my heart, And from my mind would not depart;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past, Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Only one life, yes only one, Soon will its fleeting hours be done;
Then, in ‘that day’ my Lord to meet, And stand before His Judgement seat;
Only one life,’twill soon be past, Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Only one life, the still small voice, Gently pleads for a better choice
Bidding me selfish aims to leave, And to God’s holy will to cleave;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past, Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Only one life, a few brief years, Each with its burdens, hopes, and fears;
Each with its clays I must fulfill, living for self or in His will;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past, Only what’s done for Christ will last.

When this bright world would tempt me sore, When Satan would a victory score;
When self would seek to have its way, Then help me Lord with joy to say;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past, Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Give me Father, a purpose deep, In joy or sorrow Thy word to keep;
Faithful and true what e’er the strife, Pleasing Thee in my daily life;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past, Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Oh let my love with fervor burn, And from the world now let me turn;
Living for Thee, and Thee alone, Bringing Thee pleasure on Thy throne;
Only one life, “twill soon be past, Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Only one life, yes only one, Now let me say,”Thy will be done”;
And when at last I’ll hear the call, I know I’ll say “twas worth it all”;
Only one life,’twill soon be past, Only what’s done for Christ will last. ”

C.T. Studd