so bring on the rain, and bring on the thunder

Wow. I had a long week, crazy but fun. Classes started and so i am (finally) an undergraduate, cause i feel like i've been telling people i'm in foundation since forever. Classes have been great, I have a lecturer who has the exact same accent as Zohan. I hated the movie because it was made up of dirty totally unfunny jokes, but i really like this lecturer.

Because my mum's not home, on top of homework I now have chores to do. Since my mum left at short notice and we all had plans for the day, she basically had 10 minutes to teach me how to iron before i went out. So that's my chore. Actually, i did learn how to iron in national service, but since one ironing board had to be shared among 32 people, and i am an absolute snail in ironing, my dormmates always offered to iron for me to speed up the process, no complains there.

It's been working out pretty well. Except that now, one week later, we really really miss home cooked food and are honestly getting sick of hawker food. (Well, we already felt it on the 3rd day) We daren't start our first cooking lesson without our mum in fear of her returning to a non-existent kitchen, destroyed by her 3 daughters to whom she entrusted the kitchen which also happens to be her favourite hangout.

The most amazing thing is, bekah has been having bread almost everyday for recess, lunch and dinner and still she still doesn't mind having it. I had it for one meal and until now, i steer clear. I had a whooping one week's worth of classes(friday's cancelled) and now another week of break.

We are definitely too spoilt.

drive until you lose the road

We had registration monday to settle payment and all the miscellaneous. it was done in separate rooms, so it went something like this:

room1: verify documents.

room2: check receipt.

room3: left blue form in room2. went back to look for it.

room4: left library card in room3, recovered it, came back to room4, realised handbook(which contains all important documents) left in room3 also. all dignity gone, shuffles back to room3, secretly grateful the lady at room4 didn't demand there and then that i'd better check if i had everything before i sit before her again. or maybe i got up and left too abruptly i didn't give her a chance.

Induction was on tuesday, and we all know how exciting inductions can get. ganesan, my high school classmate, who also just happens to be the tallest guy in kajang if not on earth, is leaving for the land of westlife(ireland, for the uninitiated) so i'm turning my room upside down for any old westlife posters so he can get them autographed. No, really.

Was looking through my pictures for a picture with him in it and i actually found this mugshot of him. It was during science and technology month in form 5. note the head nearly touching the celing. I'll try not to fall sick until you graduate so i can get free medical treatment.

break with the ones you've followed

You know, it's emotionally and spiritually draining to have to let go of something, or indeed, someone that means something in our lives. The battle with ourselves, the endless reasoning with God is exhausting. Before letting go, the thought of living without it seems impossible.

A lot of times, we are forced to, rather than it being a willing act. Whatever it is that makes us let go, whether it be coercion or not, it works. Why? Cause we will never learn to live without it until we actually don't have it. Refusal to let go, or efforts to delay its release is waste of precious time when we could already be learning to move on without it.

Some things have to go. Things that do us no good, things that hinder our walk with Christ. It may feel crazily, insanely impossible to do without, but you will. It's the letting go that's hard. Isn't it always?

On a completely unrelated note, I am so in love with tgv's popcorn. What's the word that stronger than craving but milder than obsession? Well, whatever it is, I am that. Gsc and imax's popcorn are just not the same. With tgv's popcorn, the movie is the side serving, the popcorn is the main attraction, oh yeah! By the time the trailers play I am scraping the bottom of the barrel. And this is the largest barrel they have, mind you.

I have not really learnt to let go easily yet, but i have learnt that I have to. That it will get better once i do.

So let go it is.

i know what's at stake

Action speaks louder than words.

Is it not human to want to explain everything with words? How can we ever be content with doing, and not always saying? A lot of times the words come in a rush, desperate to justify. But let's face it. When a person's mind is dead set against you, nothing you say will ever make a difference, no matter how much sense you're making. No matter if what you're saying is the truth.

Why do we prefer words? I think it's cause words are instantaneous. Or rather, the effect of it is. We want swift justice, words seem the best choice. We want to force people to understand, words are our only weapon.

On the other hand, action takes too long to really see its effect, if ever. I don't wanna be mistreated or judged while all i can do is stand my ground, and wait for them to see they were wrong about me. But it is this that works. Wonders.

Words are important, of course they are. But in certain situations, action is so much more. So i'm gonna try to live through my actions. Jesus Christ can be made known through them.

I can claim justice, if only i will wait.

all i have in you is more than enough

i was reading today's daily bread and it said this: when Christ is the center of your interests, life will be in focus.

it's really interesting, because at the same time i was listening to shane & shane's song yearn, and i was pondering on the fact that i am not yearning enough for God. instead, i yearn for the things this world has to offer. then i wonder why life doesn't seem fulfilling at times, why am i not satisfied. it's because i long for the worldly things, things that don't last. things like fame, material things, a perfectly planned event instead of the fellowship during that event, temporary love.. all these things don't satisfy. i know. i've tried. i know you have too.

yearn: desire strongly or persistently

i have yearned for acceptance, understanding, answers. in the same way, i want to yearn for Christ. if you experience a close relationship with Christ, you will come to realise that once you know Christ, you don't feel the need to know anything else. He is more than enough.

when everyday is lived in yearning for Christ, life makes sense. because in Him, satisfaction can be found.

Shane and Shane- Yearn

holy design
this place in time
that i might seek and find my God
my God

Lord i want to yearn for You
i want to burn with passion
over You and only You
Lord i want to yearn

Your joy is mine
yet why am i fine
with all my singing and bringing grain
in light of Him

oh You give life and breath
through Him You give all things
in Him we live and move
that's why i sing

there's just no getting over you

Kaiseng helped me borrow some books from my uni library(he's the best. He does so many favours and he never complains... well, not yet haha) that my lecturer asked me to prepare for my degree next month. (he says it's necessary or else i wouldn't do it!) i'm 3 months late in seeing him(hehe) so for this c programming he asked me to get one that does express teaching.

this is the book.

21 days... should be a relatively thin book.

this is its thickness.

21 days? i don't read that much in 21 years! well yeah i haven't even turned 19, but that's not the point. the point is... actually i don't know. are you kidding me? 900+ pages in 21 days?
what do you want me to say? i'm struck dumb by the very burden of completing it crashing down on me.(dramatic, i know. but then again, is it really?)

youth anniversary at sunway lagoon was great fun!! i'm uloading and tagging pictures on facebook i can't do it here again. if you don't have facebook, check out jonathan's blog(linked at the side). he'll try his best to upload some pictures, right jon? haha

i think elefant's a pretty cool band.